I am weary, and frustrated. I feel like…nothing. I don’t feel happy, I don’t feel sad. I feel flat. I don’t care about much except how lousy I am feeling. I feel like I am watching conversations and only nominally participating in them. Very, very detached. And zero motivation to get anything done. Even things I have to do, like show up at work on time. I took a sick day yesterday just because I couldn’t bear getting out of bed. Today, I managed to get out of bed and still make it in for 9:00 a.m., but it was difficult. I made it through half the day before coming home to bingewatch Homeland on Netflix.
I am wishing I had called my pdoc’s office earlier today to see if I could get a cancellation, rather than waiting another two weeks. I guess I can call first thing tomorrow.
I wonder if it is the Effexor or the Seroquel. My guess is the Seroquel. I have been on Effexor in the past and it didn’t give me this zombie feeling. I’m at 300 mg of Seroquel now. I wonder if I should cut back. Of course, common sense tells me to not change anything without talking to a pdoc first.
I just don’t know how long I can go on feeling this way.