This is my fifth day on Effexor (75 mg) and Seroquel (50 mg). Not sure how I am feeling. I was definitely down today, more on the anxious side. I ended up taking 1 mg Ativan, so I am feeling more level and functional now. I know I am anxious when I really can’t concentrate, feel like I am suffocating wherever I am, and break out into a sweat. The A definitely helps with that.
I keep telling myself I need to be patient. Let this new mix work. I am back in the system now and have a regular psychiatrist after waiting for months, and this is a good thing. Celebrate! At least I am under someone’s care now who seems confident of what she is doing, as opposed to my GP who didn’t understand my mix of meds.
I don’t want to think about depression and anxiety 24 hrs a day, really!
So. I got my new tires on. Victory! Did a small Costco run and stocked up on a few basics. I have a reasonable healthy (but easy) dinner on the go – butter chicken (ok, from a jar!) and steamed rice. Hey, the kids will eat it without complaint. The house isn’t in ideal condition, but it isn’t a disaster, either. Baby steps.
In the meanwhile, I am going to try a bit of self-help and list three things I am grateful for, today and every day.
1. My guy G – I know I am loved
2. Having an income
3. My home – cozy and safe